I am not what I am not!
So Today’s photograph is sent by Aamir from Jaipur,
Let's see what it holds within!
What’s the story?
There was a country guy,
He loved to be on his farms and enjoy his time gardening when he was only 12 yrs old. As he has grown up, he found that there will be no future of a farmer.
So… what he did then?
The day I woke up!
Hi, my name is Ajay, my father is a farmer and I love the work he does. I think he deserves great respect as his job is to feed the people through his work. That work needs a lot of patience and dedication which most people lack these days.
I was in an engineering college in Punjab, India. I love to be like my father, I love to be a farmer. But as I grow up facing the challenges I found that a farmer can serve the country well but he might not become capable enough to feed his family with the limited amount of money he gets in return to his daily efforts. I have seen many farmers committing suicide, just because they weren’t able to serve their families with their needs!
Hence I decided, I will be an engineer. In 1995 which was supposed to be a heaven for engineers in India as the engineering was at boom. Even after a decade, India was still in love with engineers. So, I arranged money on my own and searched for various scholarships just to get into a better college without giving any pain to my father for money!
Journey begins
My decision was firm and I went ahead for graduations and post graduations, I was fortunate to make it through without my father's help!
I was connected with him with a cellphone I sent him through the money I made through tuitions. He always blessed me with all the best wishes and good words in his mind.
The desire
I joined a tech company and I was performing very well there. I was grouped with a couple of city friends who felt a bit less comfortable talking with me, not because I was not good with my communication skills but because I was not having the status, power they have!
Within the next 9 yrs, I worked day & night as I was completely possessed with Money, Status. I also wanted all that for me. Meanwhile, I also stopped talking to my parents which ultimately ruined my relationships with them…
I gained it, but I lost too…
I am living in a bigger society than my friends, I have a car, I have acquired that status!
But in this pursuit I left my relations behind, I do miss them!
but they are not within my reach, I look them in the sky they’ve become my stars.
I was blinded, though I gained the survival + luxury.
I also lost the happiness as I was completely inclined to only one side of my life just because of my anger, my desire.
The norms
Years pass by, I kept on going in life. I got married and followed all the norms people followed in their life, as they think it will become a bandaid to their wounds of the past. I was always looking at the sky, feeling sad about my parents as they were not with me right now!
I purchased all the things, my friends, in society purchase, though it felt like a competition, I enjoyed that for a while also. till it becomes completely meaningless to me.
The comeback
A few days before my son has a plant exhibition in his school. So he requested me to arrange an amazing plant. I arranged a dahlia plant.
He won the first price as I told him all in-depth about the plant which he presented beautifully on the stage!
I finally got what was missing in my life. I started doing gardening at my home only. Some of my friends in society also asked me for advice, so they can also create a garden in their balcony as well.
That little thing revealed my true nature and made me accept, myself !
I am no more trying to fit myself, I am just being what i am and let go what i am not
Wisdom
There is no good match, If you want to fit into the norms.
There is no good fit, If you just do what you are within !
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